hopeless

Dear Mr. President,

My name is Brandon. I am writing you because me and my family are running out of hope. I live with my father and sister my mother passed away when i was in first grade. During this terrible economic problems my dad lost his job and was unemployed for 26 months. We lost our house and he lost his car and couldnt afford for my sister to continue college. When she re applied for financial aid even though he was unemployed now at this time they expected us to pay more and they pay less. its a hard time for many people now and i know there are people who have it rougher but i feel we need help. i was working at a gas station barely making any money but it was a little bit to help my father with the bills while he got his unemployment checks. As you know when people get pushed into a corner they tend to start pushing back and, thats exactly what i did. Once my sister got kicked out of school it broke my heart cause shes always been a straight a student and it didnt seem fair to see someone who was so smart not be able to continue schooling. As bad as a choice that i made that i regret everyday of my life now i turn to what made the best money in my area and became a drug dealer and started dealing weed.

It was as i could see the only option that me and my family had left. i was making good money for me and my family but my luck ran out and i was arrested for drug charges and weapon charges. The weapon charges are unexcusible but i started carrying a bat, knife and a bb gun because i was a threat to everyone in my town was starting to get set up and jumped by groups of people. Since ive been arrested my life has been nothing. i lost all of my friends, i lost my car, and all my money. i stopped dealing for a few weeks but then continued to keep dealing. I didnt want to but i had no choice because we still had a very small income without it. In march i got arrested again for drug possession in a different county. Now i do not deal anymore because my dad has found a full time job with decent pay and my sister is starting to help. I wish there was a way for me to help i have been unemployed for four months. i have come close to getting a job but once they see my backgound i get denied the job. i have changed my ways and want to better myself but i have warrants out for my arrest because i cant stay up to date with my set fines and the courts will not work with me. right now im 600 dollars in debt and got charged an extra 100 dollars for not being able to pay. i also owe 200 dollars toward motor vehicle to get my lisence back. plus i owe 175 for a fine i owe for khols because i got caught shoplifting a necklace as a christmas gift.

i have tried getting into the army thiking that would be able to better my life put me on a career path and get me away from the bad area that im surrounded it in but i have been denied that to because of my past. I know what i have done in my past and everyday i regret what i have done but it seems like no one wants to give me the chance. it seems like everyone is telling me either go to jail or go back to dealing. i dont want to do either i want to better myself. i dont know how much this letter will helo me and i dont even know if your going to see this but i need help from someone im determined to get into the army just because i was a drug dealer doesnt mean i cant protect this country. i only was dealing to help my family survive during these hard times when most kids my age deal to be cool. if i cant find a way to get money soon sir i will end up in jail with debts up to my head im just asking for help. i thank you for your time if you do look at this and respond.

sincerely, Brandon